Saturday, December 26, 2009

圣诞节

大约六岁的时候吧,第一次在幼儿园庆祝圣诞节的。

那时候的我,疯狂的爱上模型。

而且还要是自己亲手做的。

做好了,才会有那满足感。

就在那一年,我和我的好朋友串通了。

说好了,我们交换礼物的时候,一定会是自己喜欢的。

怎知道,到那天我们都带着不是心里所想要得那一份礼物。

结果还在埋怨着对方呢。

没多久,就没事了。

那时候的我,本来是相信圣诞老人是存在的。

可惜,在那一夜之前,我看了一套戏。

故事里是说,圣诞老人都是父母。

结果在那一夜,我跟姐都约好了。

要起来抓圣诞老人。

哈哈。

六点早上就起床啦。

圣诞老人都还没起身呢。

我们又睡着了。

然后到明天早上就发现,橱柜里有了礼物。

很开心。

圣诞老人,都是远在天边近在眼前的父母。

以前的我,就希望圣诞老人,能给多多的模型,好让我爽。

现在的我,就希望圣诞老人,能让我和你在一起,永远。

可是,我知道。不行的。

这一切,都要靠自己。

这一个圣诞,是我人生里,

最难忘的,

最甜美的,

最痛苦的,

最舍不得的圣诞节。。

我们,是不是真的不行了?

我好爱你。

我不想,我们就这样,完蛋了。

我不想我们是,

有缘相恋,无缘相守。

但是我们却一步一步的逼近了这个阶段。

我不要。。

我好想牵着妳。。

我好想抱着妳。。

怎么办。。

Tuesday, December 8, 2009


我好爱你
我不想放手
却无能带给你快乐
对不起。
希望将来的我,还会来得及。

Sunday, September 27, 2009

很怕,很怕。

每一次看见你,我都很开心。

看见你笑,我也会很自然地跟着你笑。

看见你嘟起嘴唇,我会有一股冲动,想要把你给抱得紧紧。

可是我不会敢做。

我本来就是一个小孩。

一个,什么都不会,什么都不敢,什么都要问过意见,没用的小孩。

你其实,很辛苦吧?

你好像,从来都没有机会说,

“哇,你好厉害哦。这些你都会哦。。”

哈哈。一定很不好受吧。

我已经在努力地学着了。

真希望,我们是同一年出生。

真希望,我是大过你的。

只是,天意弄人。

我偏偏就小你两年。

偏偏让我喜欢上你,也让你喜欢上我。

也只让我开心,而你却每一次都很痛心。

因为,我就是什么都不懂。

气死你了。

我很怕,我会失去你。

我真的很喜欢你。

我真的在改着了。

让我在你身边,继续为你提包包,为你担心,为你难过,为你快乐。

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

你的部落格

那一夜,你喝醉了。

没错,的确很像个小孩。

而我,终于能像个大人般,照顾你。

也只有那夜,我才做到。

我喜欢你一直都要抱着我。

我喜欢你把我抱得紧紧。

就算紧到我呼吸不了也没关系。

在你喝醉的时候,你问了我好多好多的问题。

“为什么你小我两年?” 你泪流满脸的问我。

在那一刻,我眼泪都出来了。

我紧紧的咬着我的嘴唇,好让我自己别哭。

我没哭,可是却把我的声音都弄抖了。

没错,的确是天意弄人。

可是我很爱你。

那时候的你,一直都在重复这问题。

”你在哪里?“

我心里突然间好怕。

你真的不知道我在这么?

我把你的手,紧紧的握着。

一直重复的说,

”我在这里。“

重复了好几遍。

你也一直不停的问,如果你呕在我身上,我还会不会爱你。

这时候,我傻笑了一会儿。

”会。我以后都会爱你。“

那时候得我是这样回答你的。

或许我是个胆小鬼。

在你喝醉的时候,才敢一直的说我爱你。

我的确很没用。

只有在那一夜,我是能照顾你的。

我不要。

我以后都要照顾你。

我不要那一夜的幸福,只能变成回忆。

我要改变。

这一次,是我最后的机会了。

我不能再失败了。

我不能再让你伤心了。

未来,会是我们幸福地开始。

我真的很爱你。

Saturday, September 12, 2009

走音。

不懂得讲笑去氹你开心
那时候,我们彼此都相信我们会很幸福。
不懂得交际暗里却走近
那时候的我,真的很开心。
靠作曲讨好你流行曲深得你心
我说过,我会长大。
让你听到了可否当上我的知音
然后就和你在一起。
写首歌给你说爱你一生
我真的以为我们真的会永远的在一起。
未令我感动嫌我未够流行
可是,我们之间开始出现了问题。
弹琴人是我原谅我
那些问题都从我这出现。
动作未够吸引
每当你发脾气,我都很慌张,很怕。
旋律怎么优美也不窝心
为什么要这么怕?
循例地拍掌
就是因为,我很害怕会失去你。
掌声太牵强
每当我犯错的时候我都只会说对不起,只会很怕,很慌张。
回头只见到你
不知道要怎么去哄你开心。
对着电话听与讲
不知道却成为了我逃避的借口。
有闷场还是太忙
我从来都没去尝试。
何以并没有一起合唱
就是因为这样,你才会很辛苦吧。
曲终一刹那
每一次都要你自己忘记掉自己生气,而我就什么也没做。
人群内的你不知去向
辛苦你了。
这首歌讲到我太过天真
我一直以为我是能把幸福带给你。
歌中的主角哪试过走近
可是看来我错了。
唱遍高低起跌而情感偏偏走音
在这些还未发生之前,都还很好。
是我只懂唱不骚不痒
和你牵着手一起看烟花,
谁人着紧
和你牵着手一起看电影。
收音机广播了我的歌
背着你的时候,真不想把你放下。
但是这曲目你可细心听过
这一切对我来说,都很重要。
旁人谈论我其实更难过
和你有关的事情都很重要。
是我的错
我不会把这一切忘掉。
我爱的不喜爱听我的歌
两年前,在我们刚认识没多久,我就喜欢上你了。
循例地拍掌
只是,我却把那感觉丢在一旁。
掌声太牵强
虽然说丢在一旁,可是会常常偷偷的去看一看这感觉。
回头只见到你
一直把你当成好朋友的我,原来很喜欢你。
对着电话听与讲
只是不敢去面对这感觉。
有闷场还是太忙
从今以后,没办法这句话,不会再出现在我的生活里。
何以并没有一起合唱
我很后悔,没能把幸福带给你。
很想听你唱
即使我一直以来都很喜欢你,但也不代表我们能在一起。
循例地拍掌
即使我现在流着眼泪,但是也不能改变过去。
掌声太牵强
因为我的无能,让你失去了对我的期待。
回头只见到你
这一切的发生,也只能怪我自己。
对着电话听与讲
或许,你和我在一起的时候,你没真正的开心过,开心的只有我自己。
即使我拿下金奖
请你原谅我的过错。
而你闷到摆出睡相
如果你选择了放弃,我还是会努力,我会尝试去挽回。
曲终一刹那
如果你选择了要我放弃,我会祝你永远都幸福快乐。
才明白跟你相当勉强
请你允许我在这,偷偷的对你说多一次,
我爱妳,盈。

Monday, August 31, 2009

完啦~

就这样,假期完了。

在這個假期里,发生了好多好多的事。。

让我有一点的觉悟。

让我想通了一些事。

或许,我们暂时做回朋友,对妳来说,会比较好吧?

在你心里,你想要的情人,是应该要有事业,能照顾你,成熟。。

而我现在,却一样都没有。

辛苦你啦。

不如,你就趁这个机会,休息吧?

别为这些事而烦恼。

去做你想做的事。。

让我长大吧。

如果可以的话,我希望,我们是真的可以在一起。

嗯。。
若你真的很辛苦,就别等了。

Friday, August 28, 2009

美梦

昨晚,头重重的。

应该是因为淋到雨了,然后直接吹冷气。

幸好,虚惊一场。我没发烧。

可是却让你担心了吧?真不好意思。

昨天,临睡之前,我一直都在听着你的歌。

情歌。

我就只是听这首歌,听到我睡着了。

然后你的短讯我都没回了。

就因为这样,我就进入了一个很美,很美的梦境。

在那里,我们都很幸福。

我们的生活,无忧无虑。

都很快乐。

最让我印象深刻的,我又背着你了。

我好像喜欢上背着你的感觉了。

呵呵。

可惜啊。都只是梦。

总该要醒来的。

现在的我,很想睡觉。

希望咱们能在梦中相见。

哈哈

Thursday, August 27, 2009

七夕

那天,你問我。

”知不知道今天是什么日子?“

让你失望了。

”不知道啊。。八月份好像没什么特别。“

”七月初七啊!七夕你不知道?“

我一回答你这问题,就被你说蕉人啦。

原来,是牛郎与织女相见的日子。。

而且,就在那天的半夜。

你决定了。要做回朋友。

好让我长大。长大后才在一起。

是啊。。这并不是一个好时机。

我不会驾车,我还没做工,我还没长大。

希望你会等我。

我会长大。

这一次,我是为自己而长大。

我不会放弃。

我会等。

———————————————————————————————————————————————————————————谢谢你让我听见,因为我在等待永远

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

真心话,不是讨好的话

八分半。

你觉得你在我心里就只有那八分半?

你不止八分半。

对我来说你是满分。

你一问我的时候,我不想直接就说你满分了。

因为我觉得你会以为我只是在讨好你。

没想到反而因为这样,把事情给搞砸了。

你每一张照片都是满分的。

只要是你的照片,我都喜欢,我都觉得很美。

只要是你,就好了。

你在我心里是10/10的。

Sunday, August 16, 2009

confused.

在这一天,心很乱。

我都不知道我该怎么办才好。

怎么连我想等到你睡觉,都好像不大好了?

我好不容易找到了一个让我能觉得自己好像长大了的感觉。

而你却说别人都在说你不让我睡觉。

怎么了?

只是,昨晚好像真的累了吧?

你对我说你不开心我却没听见。。

很对不起。

现在的我,真的很乱。

我开始越想越多了。

你好像都不大想和我说话。

好像不理不睬的感觉。

我不喜欢这种感觉。。

好冷淡。

让我觉得好寂寞。

Sunday, August 2, 2009

变心

其实,你说你怕我会变心。

可是我常说我不会。

你相信么?

你好像都不大相信。。

是不是因为我还是十七岁?

怕我长大后会遇到更好的吧?

我已经遇到了。

两年前已经让我遇到了。

你对我来说,已经是最好的了。

我喜欢妳。

很喜欢,就算有更好的在我面前我都不要。

我每一天都在想着你,

每一天都在担心着你做工会闷么,

每一天都在倒数着我们见面的时候,

每一天都会看看你的照片,

每一天都会想要听听你的声音,

每一天,都会想要对你说我好喜欢你。

说真的,我应该比你更怕。

我其实,也很怕你会不喜欢我了。

我怕你会嫌我不够成熟。

我怕你会遇到一个比我好很多的。

我怕你总有一天会觉得和我在一起会很闷。

我怕。

真的很怕。

可是我从来都没对你说过,因为我很怕听见你说,

”我也很怕我会变心。“

每当想到这一个问题,心也会好像大石头一样,在水里往下的沉下去。

我只能尽我全力,

赶快的长大。

就只希望,我们能够永远在一起。

好希望,我们真的能够永远的在一起。

好希望,我们对彼此的感觉永远不变。

请你相信,我对你是认真的。

我喜欢妳。

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

说不出的快乐,藏不住的惭愧

当妳说妳好像喜欢我,我真的很开心。

真的很开心。

可是,再想一想。

很惭愧。竟然不是我对妳说这一句。

那一夜,我们聊到很晚。

我那时候,已经把那封短讯打好了。

可是我没发出去。

却只想到,怕会给妳压力。

到现在,我都还没亲口对你说一句,

我也很喜欢妳。

Saturday, July 4, 2009

tired.

其实我觉得,喜欢妳,会让妳很为难。

增加了妳的烦恼。

因为妳知道我喜欢妳,所以妳又要顾着我的感受。

真的很对不起啊。。

阿涕,

不晓得多久没叫妳这名字了。

妳还记得吗?

我宁愿,回到过去。

那时候的我,应该没给妳那么多烦恼吧?

至少没有现在那么多。。



试问,

一条小河川又如何能满足大树上的叶子的需要呢?

即使小河川变成了大的河川,大树上的叶子也会跟着长大的吧?

树上的叶子,只需要阳光和空气,就已经足够了。

反而若太多水分,对树上的叶子也没什么好处,不是吗?



今晚想的东西实在是太多了。好累。

Thursday, July 2, 2009

翘课

今天,骗了妈妈。

为了和妳出街。

虽然不是很久,可是真的很爽啊!

不过也有不爽的啦。竟然被叫小弟弟啦。

不过也算了。

肥仔杰,废到弄到我笑了整天。

其实我最享受的,并不是我自己笑。

而是看见妳笑。



当妳说你想在那里做工,我其实蛮高兴的。

因为我偶尔有机会就自己偷偷的搭巴士去那找妳。

不过对妳来讲,很不方便啦。

哈哈。



为妳翘课的这一天,值得的 :D

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

儿歌。

对不起。

我好后悔,我没去注意我到底有没有收到这首歌。

妳对我说,这首歌的歌词很厚意思。

没错,的确很有意思。

我好喜欢这首儿歌。

谢谢妳,对不起。





妳还会等我吗?

我好想长大。

然后..

保护妳。

Friday, June 26, 2009

a video clip.

如果我没猜错,妳一只在说的秘密就是这个吧?

虽然不是很长,但却很清楚。

从我们认识,到现在,妳都把这些回忆,全都放在里面了。

谢谢妳。

无法否认,我的确很喜欢妳。

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

弱了。

最近,好像弱了。

我竟然,可以因为妳送我的一首歌,而流下了眼泪。

那一首歌,歌词很简单。

却好像,让我听见了妳心里的每一句话。

或许,又是我想太多吧?

这种情绪,我不懂的解释。

却只哭了出来。

很傻吧?

为了一首歌哭了。

没错,我的确是放不下妳。

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

lol.

生命中,
不断地有人离开或进入。
于是,看见的,看不见了。
记住的,遗忘了。

生命中,
不断地有得到和失落。
于是,看不见的,看见了。
遗忘的,记住了。

然而,
看不见的,
是不是就等于不存在?
记住的,
是不是永远不会消失?

Saturday, May 16, 2009

陌生人。

最近情绪不大稳定。

总是自己想太多。

没什么大不了的。

只是想说出心里的不安。

在KFC外面。

妳看了我一眼。

可是,好像是在看一个陌生人。

那个时候,心里很不舒服。

对妳来说,我应该还没算是一个陌生人吧?呵呵

这几天的天气不好。

我听到妳有幾声咳嗽,要好好照顾自己啊!呵呵

Sunday, May 10, 2009

第一次。

好担心。

妳还好吗?

好想知道妳在做什么。

好不甘心。

我们的距离,好像又远了。

怎么没告诉我呢?

和妳在一起的时候,真的很开心。

妳给了我生命中好多的第一次。

第一次让我感觉到,好朋友的存在。

第一次让我相信,缘分。

第一次让我觉得自己其实并不是太差。

第一次让我感觉到妳手心里的温暖。

第一次让我看到生命中最美丽的烟火。

第一次让我疯狂的玩了一整夜。

第一次让我振作起来。

第一次让我发现,我想学吉他原因。

第一次让我鼓起了勇气,对妳唱了一首歌。

第一次让我有这种不安的感觉。

第一次让我为妳,流下了第一滴泪。

please, be safe.

whoever saw this post. please, pray for my friend. she's having a thyroid problem now. and it's serious..

please be safe.

god, please bless her.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

time to stop this thing.

it's about time for me to stop writing this already. wahahaha... sorry to bay, because u asked me to start this first but now i'm quitting it i guess. very lazy already. ahahaha. i'm sorry

Monday, March 30, 2009

define true friends.

can anyone explain what true friends really are? is it just, telling u that i will be there when u need me? or just, i'll give u a hand when u need help? hahaha. actually, i guess i've also tried before, 说到做不到 ba. that is why, i am afraid to make promises ever since that time. hehe. and to my friends. i hope u all can correct me if i'm wrong. dun just sit quietly without telling me my mistakes. because, i dun wish to lose anyone of u wahahahaha. and also, please define true friends for me :D only if u saw this post hehe

Saturday, March 21, 2009

what a night.

haha. this is the first time. i dun feel like sleeping.. although i feel sleepy. nothing much happened. but i wasn't in a very good mood i guess. hehe. dunno why am i like this tonight. holiday is ending~ school is starting. need to work hard le ba. no pain no gain eh? heh

Sunday, March 15, 2009

what a wonderful and tiring day~

today.. it was really nice. as i was still worrying last night. but everything seems to be okay this morning. u're still so warm to me. i'm glad. haha i slept at 2.20+ and woke up at 6 =_= because they say they will come fetch me at 8+. so i asked sammy to come earlier. anyway, we are going to sunway lagoon..
the journey begins. at first, we reached there at 10.40+ if i'm not mistaken. we were waiting for the others to come. then, un appeared :D he gives me a feeling that he is a cool guy. but actually he's not. a friendly guy and here! WE SAW JIN RUI AND THE GANG HERE ALSO :D
then, ying was so excited to go into the lagoon. like eating ecstacy. she was like a kid. keep on pulling me like i'm his father. hahaha that was funny. then, the war started once we went into the lagoon.
they were trying to wet everyone with water. no need see also know, i was the second last who was wet. because sammy keep run away. if not i'll be the last :D haha. and ying, also say jor ga lah. wan 陷害 people. but kena ur self. hahaha. and u ah. wan yeh lah. i thought u really cramp. 奋不顾身 bring u back to the shallower place. dim zi u keep laugh! i choked jor so many times. haha but it was fun :D
and then, the one. like a pendulum that one. walao. this one really chi gik. that time i and sammy still say wan sit the behind there. almost middle also scare die me. so chi gik ah! like my heart dropped! the first one was chi gik. but the second one. walao.. so DAMN fast and 360 degrees. wah. really! chi sin ah~
after that, we went to the. some thing like a roller coaster? but not so. and i remembered what ying said. later i sit i ng scream! and the results is. hahaha u screamed so much :D but really very fast lah. haha.
i guess that's all i can write ba. very tired already :D still got alot but i cut already lah. hahaha but it was fun :D

Friday, March 13, 2009

是我忽略了吗?

是不是因为我?是不是因为我太重视她啦?你所写的,好像都在写着我。
每当有什么不开心和开心的,都是关于她,关于她的事,我都跟你说了。
也许,是因为这样,你才会想要一个人静静的吧?
也或许不是。。是不是我想多了啦?我也不懂。好担心啊~
我,以后也不会这样了。我会改!不会再有重色轻友了啦!
所以,希望你能原谅我。
对不起

Sunday, March 8, 2009

duplicating~

hahaha. seems like my feelings towards u, instead of fading, they are duplicating! a weird phrase. but it is true~ i loved ur smiles. i loved talking with u too. time is passing. i always wished if i can freeze the time, so that our conversation never ends. like ying said, my mind is full of u. like 重色轻友. didn't like being that actually.. hehe. i'm trying to change anyway. 情义两难存! hopefully it will perish in my world :D wahahaha

Friday, February 13, 2009

valentine soon.

lol.. valentine is coming~ but too bad. i guess i'll be dating my tuition teacher tomorrow. she's not free i guess.. haha. even if she's free,i dun think i'll be able to call her out one. it's okay ba. i guess, really is 有緣無分 lah. u are always so fair.. always treating everyone the same.. u can be so close to everyone. felt like i'm a little jealous. what a weird feeling eh? sometimes, u're so close with me. but sometimes, it's like, u're suddenly so far, like a stranger to me. hahaha. no point telling this out now. just 发泄 only :D haha.

誓言中的美丽,却只像流星,只有那一刻的荣耀——————————————回想起流星还是那么美丽
hahaha. quoted from a song. sounds meaningful. just like it says. maybe promises was made to be kept in our memories~

anyway. hahaha happy valentine for now ba~ 祝天下间有情人终成眷属!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

too miss her le ba :D

haha. was so bored today. yesterday had too much fun with l4d already. hehe. well, tonight, i sent minyi 2 songs. i think it's not bad. and then minyi sent me a song too. haha. named 半情歌 (half love song) not a bad song though. lol. too bad i can't play l4d today. if not i won't be so bored now. bored until login friendster and see. haha. i saw her pictures. lol. i can't believe i see all of them, about 100+ pictures. one by one, i clicked next. haha. it was fun though. at least i saw her. hehe

Monday, February 2, 2009

what a moody day

hehe.. actually today they all come, i should be having fun with them. however, i didn't. i think is because of last night gua.. because of that, i'm being moody ~_~ i tried to cheer myself up! not much, just slightly better than last night. but i guess, it's still fun seeing u guys just now. hehe thanks for coming

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

i get drunk

hahahaha. i know i'm drunk but my brain is still clear. i drank a lot tnoight. 27th of january 2009, i'm drunk. hahaha. it was nothing much to write about. just, while i'm drinking the wine, my mind is full of her. i was thinking of her all the time. haha. at this drunk state, i would like to tell u that. i love u. i really do.. hahaha. i'm always happy when i'm talking to u. i liked ur voice. ur smiles. maybe, it doesn't sounded like i'm serious. but i can tell here.. i really do. haha. but i dun think u'll know it. only my friends knew.. i wished, i could have hold ur hands forever. i would be there whenever u needed me. i've always missed u. here, once more. i love u

Sunday, January 25, 2009

a failed call on the chinese new year

my mom stopped me from going into my room. she asked me to go down. i did as she says. not that fun though. it's boring at first. so halfway i went to cycle. i was sms-ing minyi. while cycling :D it's hard. and whenever i wan to reply her message also have to stop the bicycle. also, when i tried to brake, the bicycle gives out a screech sound. sounds like drifting but it's annoying. however, while i'm cycling, i saw a lot of fireworks. it's just okie okie only. not very beautiful. after that, i lazy wanna type message. i wanted to call minyi for a chat. however, i didn't call at the end :D because i reached home. at first i was wandering around the neighborhood so i could call her. but she say it's expensive! is it true? if she's at malacca and i'm at kl, i call her will be expensive meh? after that she say i call her is the same price but she call me will be more expensive. so, when she replied this message, i reach home le. so, not today! but i guess some other day! must let my brain rest a bit so i can zat her again :D wahaha happy chinese new year ba everyone~

Sunday, January 18, 2009

i think jor hou long to write this ~_~

She is at an average height, around 165cm. In my opinion, as for girls, she’s probably already in the category of tall one. She is fair, but not pale. I can say that, she is always with a cheerful smile. Whenever I saw her smile, i can hardly be sad.
Well, I don’t think you’ll get it right if you’re trying to judge how old is she just by her look. She’s already an adult because she’s 19 this year.
We knew each other through internet gaming, so I don't know how she looks like, we decided to meet up. I first met her in Time Square, the shopping mall. She was working there, as a promoter. I’ve never been there before and I could get lost easily in a place without being accompanied. I was walking around the lobby, looking for her. After I walk around the lobby for 2 to 3 rounds, I gave up. I called her and asked for her specific location. She asked me to go down through the escalator on my left, and that’s all. She asked me to look around because she shouldn’t be talking on the phone, or else she will be scolded by her supervisor. So I’ll just have to follow the directions she gave.
I went down using the escalator and I saw her. She looked mature in the uniform of the promoters and her short hair. As I expected, she was an extrovert. When I first saw her, she was already smiling at me. Her smile was warm and friendly. Also, she doesn’t seem to be shy like me; I wasn’t the first one who started the conversation. However, the way she talks makes me feel comfortable while I’m spending time with her. I remembered I asked her, “Don’t you feel tired with all these works? You have to serve those customers, some of them may be friendly, but some of them aren’t so. Also, if you did something wrongly, you’ll be scolded badly. Isn’t that frustrating?” she answered my questions with a smile, “it is true that the works are tiring me, and it does feel annoying when you’re being scolded badly. But do you know, people learn from their mistakes? After you’re being scolded, you won’t repeat the same mistakes again. Not only that, without being scolded, you won’t be able to improve. So, this work is actually fun and interesting. I’m enjoying it.” After listening to her replies, I felt like I’m being motivated to work.
It is 31st of December 2008, New Year’s Eve. We went for a countdown at The Curve. She dressed elegantly that night. That night, I had a wonderful time. Everyone seems to be counting seconds by seconds, 2009 is approaching. Of course, we are doing the same thing like the others did. When it is 12 sharp, the fireworks brighten the sky, with different patterns and colors. It was really beautiful. While the fireworks are started, she said, “You know, fireworks may be beautiful. However, it only last for a few seconds, and eventually, its lifespan ends. Do you know why I am telling you this?” I shook my head. Slowly, she continued, “it’s because; I hope our friendship would last forever.” I didn’t know what to say, so I just nod my head.
I knew her for only a year, but she is my best friend. I truly cherish for our friendship. She is a dependable person. Whenever I had problems in my studies or even my feelings, she’s always willing to help. Her advices are always different from the ones being said often. I enjoyed spending time with her.
She changed me a lot. She taught me to be confident always as I am always being so shy. Not only that, she is always encouraging me, as a result, I am improving myself slowly. Thanks to her, I turned out to be a lot better than last time.
I do respect her very much. Just like a student respects his teacher. Well, I felt like I’m starting to rely on her. I guess it’s because she is really too willing to help whenever I’m facing some problems. Not only that, she always tells me, “not to be afraid, there is always a way out when you’re in a puzzle. If you can’t find the way, do not hesitate to ask for help.”
A thousand thanks wouldn’t be enough for the things she helped me. She really did help me so much. Her smiles, keeps me away from being sad. Her advices, brings me back to the right path. I wish I could be like her. Thanks again for what you’ve did for me. Oh and, I forgot to mention her name here. Her name is Ying.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

i follow jek :D

双子座二

新语言的一周 6/3-10

黄道宫位置: 约在双子座12-20度

季 节: 春末

元 素: 风

主宰行星: 水星

象征符号: 双胞胎

理解事物的方式: 思考

  双子二的代表意象是「新语言」,以人的一生来看,相当于离开高中,准备要进入大学或就业市场的年纪。在这过渡时期中,一切充满不确定感,年轻人必须决 定未来的方向或职业,并加以规画、实行。缜密的思考能力、书写与言语的表达能力对他们愈来愈显重要;此外,思想的准确度、一致性与想象力、观察力也一样重 要。这时的年轻人会培养出独立人格,并能够坦然接受人生中的悲喜。

  双子二的人有强烈的欲望想将自己的想法和感觉讲给别人听,即使别人不同意他们的看法,他们也一定会把自己的观感告诉 旁人。但是问题在于双子二习惯用「自己独特的语言」来表达,常使人有摸不着头绪的困扰。因此双子二的人经常遭人误解,变得紧张又倍受挫折。更糟的是,双子 二常为了让别人暸解他们的想法,不惜一再用不同的说法重复相同观念,而且不停地说,对别人形成疲劳轰炸。

  双子二的人机智聪敏、快活有趣,他们很懂得如何吸引别人的注意。但就长期人际交往关系而论,双子二这种爱现的态度刚 开始时可能真的会令人眼睛一亮,但时间一久,对方便会觉得双子二不怎么样,甚至有些烦人。除此之外,双子二所想的和所说的常不一致,加上一直急切地想表达 自我,常把人搞得很累,有的人就算听不懂他们说什么,最后也干脆装懂。不过,误解总是会在事后发生,别人就会回过头来指责双子二的人表达不清。

  对双子二的人来说,语言并非唯一的沟通方式,他们的肢体语言也可以表达得很好。他们终其一生,都非常需要能舒展筋 骨、表达肢体语言的运动或活动,尤其在他们年轻时,这更是生活中不可或缺的一部份。这些活动不仅可以发展他们敏捷的才思,同时又可增进食欲及改善睡眠品 质。其实情感的适度表达也可以是双子二的沟通方式,这可以让他们感受到爱与感激,并和他人分享经验。

  双子二的人很喜欢与人一较长短,而且很容易失去控制。竞争心虽然会使得双子二的人很敏锐,但也会使他们争强好胜、好 辩,他们往往利用自己的机智辩才,毫不留情地伤害对方。除非他们能克制自己爱批评的毛病,否则连最亲密的朋友都会逐渐疏远他们。双子二的人其实对自己也很 严苛。这一周出生的人会因父母曾指责他们没有责任感、一事无成或能力不足而缺乏自信。如果这问题能改善,双子二对别人过份锐利的态度便会软化下来。他们如 刺猬般的外表往往是怕遭人误解,或怕被人误认他们愚蠢、不成熟而伪装出来的。只要他们能改变行为模式,对自己不要那么严格,快乐一点,并学习接纳自己的不 完美,他们便能有效改善人际关系。

  双子二的人在择偶时往往只凭一时的直觉和冲动。通常过不了多久,便会发现他们精挑细选的人根本不关心他们在讲些什 么,而且也很少花时间倾听。双子二的人很容易被安静、内向的人所吸引,不过时间久了,双子二的人就会觉得对方的沉默不语是一种排斥他们的表现,但其它能言 善道的人却又不像安静的人那么能吸引双子二。这除了是互补的吸引作用外,也因为双子二的人私下对人生的黑暗面很感兴趣。再加上双子二的人虽然表面上看起来 很活泼外向,像是天生的乐观主义者,其实他们有时只是强颜欢笑。由于深怕被别人排斥,双子二的人会拚命掩饰自己不好的缺点,这也是他们喜欢跟个性不开朗的 情人或朋友交往的真正原因。

  双子二应该用更理性的方法来选择伙伴。与其选择背景完全不同的人,不如挑住在同一都市或邻近地区,种族相同、经济能 力相当的人做为伴侣,这样更能顺利地建立良好的互动关系。如此双方不但有共同语言,彼此也比较容易沟通。双子二的人与配偶的共通点是维持两人长久关系的基 础,这种选择比单靠一时激情和吸引力来得可靠实际。

  双子二喜欢变化。跟他们相处的人常须提供各种新刺激与变化给他们,尤其是双子二本身缺乏组织能力,无法切实执行计 画,所以双子二很适合跟个性沉着、稳重实际型的人结合,在这种组合下双子二的人负责动脑提出新点子,然后由对方去修正、执行。双子二和实际型的人搭配,往 往可以缔造美好的姻缘、建立家庭,成为事业伙伴或分享共同嗜好的朋友。

  当双子二需求无法满足时,便会去寻找更善解人意的第三者。如果这个第三者能一直保持客观的立场,他们的善解人意和同 情心或许有助于改善当事人的关系。可惜这第三者往往无法这么做,而是破坏了别人的婚姻、爱情或事业关系。换句话说,双子二要小心,尽量与那些表面上显得很 有同情心,实际上却自私,可能破坏别人感情的人保持距离。

优点 健谈、竞争力强、富创新能力

缺点 不善沟通、缺乏组织能力、肤浅

建议

  做事不要匆匆忙忙。讲话要清晰、有条理并且圆融。多留意别人对你的印象和观感,检讨是否有可以改进的地方。记住沉默是金的重要。多花点时间与别人建立深刻的友谊。

情侣: 金牛座二 金牛双子座 巨蟹座一 巨蟹座三 狮子处女座 处女天秤座 射手魔羯座 双鱼座一

夫妻: 双鱼牡羊座 天秤天蝎座 天蝎座三 射手座一 魔羯水瓶座 双鱼座三

朋友: 金牛座三 双子座一 巨蟹狮子座 狮子座二 狮子座三 天秤座一 天蝎座二 射手座三 魔羯座一 水瓶座一

家人: 牡羊座三 双子巨蟹座 天秤座二 水瓶座三 水瓶双鱼座 双鱼座二

同事: 牡羊座一 双子座二 双子座三 狮子座一 处女座三 天秤座三 天蝎座一 射手座二 魔羯座二 水瓶座二

do u think i'm like this? :D

i wish~

haha actually there is alot to write about before today. but i'm lazy. so i'm just hoping that, all of my friends will be happy everyday~ of course, healthy too.. hehe when it comes to health, i guess u should know who am i mentioning about lah. be obedient! and be okay quickly ya :D hehe

Sunday, January 4, 2009

unexpected.

i thought, tomorrow school will be starting, so tonight might be a very nice night to chat. but who knows. it's a boring night. nothing to do. just listening to songs.. ying, everytime, whenever i chat with u i also feel very happy. like there's nothing to worry about. only happiness exists. i always laugh when i'm talking to u. but today, u seems to be upset. i'm worried. i wanted to help but i can't. i'm sorry. i always wanted u to be happy all the time. but i can't do anything to make u happy actually.. felt like helpless gum. however, i'm sure. u won't be alone. dun think negatively ba. i'll be busy soon. i thought that i could chat with u tonight. but it's okay, i hope u can get over this quickly. and be happy again. that's all for now heh. i dunno whether u will read this or not. but never mind! just let this be my wish ba hehe

goodbye, holiday

hehe.. well, school is reopening tomorrow le. i dun like it, but it can't be helped. however, i really enjoyed this holiday. the best holiday i ever had. i enjoyed spending time with my friends. ying bay gam jan joyce jan's bro ken vir xiao gui jinyan wayne, thanks to u all, i had a wonderful holiday. i wish this holiday won't stop. hehe. it may sound greedy.. never mind, after i spm, let's have fun together again. please, remember my presence when i'm absent :D hehe... goodbye, holiday.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

a dream.

yesterday i had a dream.. i dream that, i was waiting for her to finish her work at a shopping mall or something. then when she came out, i asked her whether is she hungry. then she said, if i'm hungry will u pay for me? lol. for me, of course it would be my pleasure. on the way, i was like, trying to hold her hand. her left hand. hehe.. i was shocked when i was holding her hand, i found out that she was holding mine too :D that was really nice. the feel, haven't fade in my heart yet. but.. it was only a dream. it didn't last long. i wish dreams could come true. even if it couldn't, at least, last longer.. hehe

Thursday, January 1, 2009

the countdown again

well, it was yesterday. my bro sent me a message saying, prepare. i back then bath. then we go. it's like, he sounded so confident about how are we going to go there. because, he actually dunno how to go to the curve. hehe. but never mind, because we manage to reach there. although, we 迷路 once :D then when we reach there, of course, toilet first. after that, we went to find ying :D sakae-sushi! she's there. hehe. xiao gui is already there too. but he says that he is cheated by ying. that time xiao gui call her and ask, lei (my bro) reach jor? then ying thought 'lei' means her, then she said yes. so xiao gui fly to the curve at once. because he thought my bro is there.. sounds gay :D ying offered me a cup of egg. i thought it was pudding :D so i asked once more then she say i dun trust her jor tim :D after that, ying says the terriyaki chicken or something is nice. so i follow her recommendation loh. if not nice also can ask her eat :D hehe just kidding. then after we eat, we talked for a while, and time for IP MAN! but before that, we bought some drinks and popcorn. ip man.. so damn nice :D keep on watching also forgot to eat the popcorn le. then after the movie, me my bro and xiao gui went to toilet, then when come out ying lost le. we keep call also fail. then we went in to the cinema that site to search for her. then we saw her walking in from outside. hahaha. raymond was here too. after that, raymond says he haven't eat his dinner. we walked a big round. but at the end, we eat at paddington. then ying eat halfway, went out to wait for gam bay vir joyce jan they all come. then when they reach, it's almost 11 if i'm not mistaken.. then they eat eat eat, already almost 12. and then, we payed and left. and the fireworks starts. it's beautiful.. and then me ying bay gam rushed downstairs to see the fireworks more clearly. then raymond came with a box. full of sprays! he bought 50 sprays for 100 bucks. hehe. and that's my chance! 有仇不报正人渣! hehehe at first we were spraying the people there geh. but halfway, suddenly they all 调转枪头 spray us back. i saw ying whole white le. i was laughing like hell :D then when we no more spray le, we wiped on other's face. hahaha. it was fun. i didn't expect i would play until so 疯狂. that would really be my first time. can countdown with them, can play with them like this, really is 不枉此生 lah :D happy new year ba everyone